Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Days at the Beach!

I'm using the term "beach" generously.  In Northern California, it's really more accurate to call it the Coast.  But beautiful, and relaxing, and centering nonetheless.

Matt and I made not one, but two beach trips in the last two weeks, and I was again reminded why the Pacific Coast is one of my most favorite places in the world, even when it's a little chilly.

Muir Beach

Bodega Head

Bodega Head

Sunday, June 23, 2013

The experiment is over...

And Weight Watchers and I are back together.

I just couldn't make it a month without weighing myself.

So two weeks ago, I stepped back on the scale.  It was up a pound.  Then last week, I got on it again, it was up further.

Something was wrong.

During my scale-less experiment, I realized very quickly that it's easy to spiral out of control.  Even when I'm weighing in weekly, I can say, "I can have this, I have 4 (or 5 or 3 or whatever) days to make up for it."  But when it's monthly weighing, I have 2 or 3 weeks to make up for it.

So it was the same cycle I described when I decided to stop weekly weighing, but with a lot more time to gain.

I learned that changing up the schedule doesn't change up the cycle, and until I deal with the cycle, I really, really need the accountability of the scale.

So the next step is to actually do the hard work of dealing with the binge restrict cycle.  I have some book recommendations, but I need to pull the trigger on ordering them.  It's kind of scary.

Matt and I are going on vacation next week, so all of the self discovery is going to take a backseat to enjoying my family.  Weight Watchers can provide the structure I need to keeping a 10 day vacation from getting out of hand.  But when I get back, it'll be time to tackle this thing head on.