And Weight Watchers and I are back together.
I just couldn't make it a month without weighing myself.
So two weeks ago, I stepped back on the scale. It was up a pound. Then last week, I got on it again, it was up further.
Something was wrong.
During my scale-less experiment, I realized very quickly that it's easy to spiral out of control. Even when I'm weighing in weekly, I can say, "I can have this, I have 4 (or 5 or 3 or whatever) days to make up for it." But when it's monthly weighing, I have 2 or 3 weeks to make up for it.
So it was the same cycle I described when I decided to stop weekly weighing, but with a lot more time to gain.
I learned that changing up the schedule doesn't change up the cycle, and until I deal with the cycle, I really, really need the accountability of the scale.
So the next step is to actually do the hard work of dealing with the binge restrict cycle. I have some book recommendations, but I need to pull the trigger on ordering them. It's kind of scary.
Matt and I are going on vacation next week, so all of the self discovery is going to take a backseat to enjoying my family. Weight Watchers can provide the structure I need to keeping a 10 day vacation from getting out of hand. But when I get back, it'll be time to tackle this thing head on.